- the teachers hated you, even the ones you got along with, and even now they probably can't care less about all those free periods you spent making jokes and having intellectual conversations. and teenagers weren't the only ones judging each other, because those teachers judged you too and that's almost more frustrating than being judged by your peers in the first place.
- everyone was part of a clique but you just floated around to so many groups that you never actually belonged even though it seemed like you did at the time, and now you only really truly like 3 or 4 of them and everyone else just bugs that crap out of you, but now that high school's over, it's not easy finding such close friends anymore.
- your best friend left you behind so you had to hang with druggies who asked your advice but never took it, people who tried too hard to look cool, and drama queens/kings who never shut up, all so she could get drunk and smoke and party with people who weren't nice to you and were shallow and used each other to look good and get smashed. but that's okay because you all know how that turned out, and high school is just an experiment anyway so obviously this just tested your friendship and you know better by now, sort of.
- the love triangle that almost ruined the aforementioned friendship for a boy who is just too different than either of you, and why did you waste all that time fighting over someone it could never have worked out with anyway, and who is just way too conservative, infuriating, close-minded, and just one of the hugest jerks you've ever met?
- your class hated everything and everyone and high school was obviously just about AP classes and drunken parties and smoking pot and dressing like posers and nobody had any school spirit or class unity and you all just really claimed to hate almaden even though almost no one even left it after graduation.
- there were no in-betweens: you were either a stupid pothead or slutty prep if you took normal classes, or over-achieving ivy leagues with 3490830 AP classes and witty remarks, and for the few people like you, you were just stuck looking arrogant when in normal classes, and stupid or quiet in advanced ones.
- you could never really be yourself in high school, even though everyone claimed that they were independent and didn't care what people thought but really everyone did.
- film and english classes were the best, but if you -- god forbid -- hated a movie or book that everyone else loved for some reason even though you were practically falling asleep the whole time, everyone would get all quiet and awkward, saying "oh..." but really they were just thinking about how stupid you were because you obviously didn't "get it" -- but in reality, you understand why it's great but you just don't like it despite it all, and what's wrong with having your own opinion?
- parents never trusted you just because you were a few months shy of 18 and they never let you stay up past 11 or go out at night or wear certain clothes or go on facebook for a few hours just because they believed you "shouldn't accept being like everyone else", but cmon people, there's nothing wrong with being a teenager while you have the chance, and now look: it's the last 9 months of being a teenager and now there's no excuse to do stupid things and have fun anymore.
- everyone says they hated high school because of drama and petty relationships, but it's not much different now anyway, and honestly, the real reason everyone hates high school is just because they're older and legal and in college so the idea of high school is just sooo immature and you all think you've grown but you're all just living through the same shit at a more advanced level.
xx
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
dear J and G:
I apologize for the fact that my first blogspot entry is rude and uncalled for, but this has been building up for a while now and it's about time I say something about it, even if it's not directly to your face [and don't worry, your reputations are not tarnished by this entry, considering I only have 1 follower].
let's start with the final straw, aka what happened today. monday after monday, I always do what you two want, even though you both know I don't eat subway and I hate walking to the opposite side of campus from where I live. but even if I whine about it once in a while, I still go because friends care more about each other than themselves. but today is the one day when I ask you guys to go somewhere I want to go, and you guys just make excuses and complain that the mall is too far away when HELLO, it's just down the street and you only have to cross one 2-lane street to get there. and cmon, you have the time to walk there, eat, and back. did you have something better to do with your free time? yeah, didn't think so. I walked there by myself AND back AND turned in all 7 of my applications AND bought food AND shopped...in just half an hour. so no, it isn't wasting your time. and what's this about the food court being "so 80s"? like that even makes sense. who DOESN'T eat in food courts, wtf?
second, our presentation for class. when we were working on the powerpoint at first, I participated and spoke up, but every single one of my ideas were shot down. so I shut up. and then J, you had the nerve to tell me I can "suggest anything anytime". seriously? I know I've been acting bitchy lately, but it's only because you two have been treating me like shit for the past few weeks. I'm not mean unless someone's mean to me first. if I ever act rude or say something bitchy to either of you, keep in mind that it's because of something you did/said to me first.
speaking of which, G, you've been saying some of the rudest things to me lately. on AIM, first you ask me out -- and I don't know if you were telling the truth when you said you didn't remember it, or if for some reason the message just popped up without you knowing -- and then when you keep bugging me about what you said [I never said it because it was something I didn't want to talk about; I was NOT playing hard to get], you had the gall to say I was just "one of those girls". okay, there is NO way I'm your only female friend. let me make this extremely clear to you: NO girl, whether you're joking or not or what kind of relationship you have with her, likes being referred to as "one of those girls". you might think it's no big deal to say it, but it's RUDE.
the second instance was when we were leaving class the time before our presentation. you kept saying how you would wear your 'fuck cancer' shirt, I said you shouldn't, and then you got all butt-hurt and told me to "get over myself". okay first of all, that doesn't even make sense. my telling you not to wear a shirt has nothing to do with me being full of myself...I mean really? and third was when we were actually working on our presentation and you kept spitting things out like "YOU'RE the jerk" and "yeah because you're SO cool" in that sarcastic way of yours that is NOT joking-sarcastic, but plain rude-sarcastic. we both know I'm a sarcastic person, and I know you have your moments too, but there's a difference between joking around and being downright disrespectful.
and then there comes AIM conversations in general with both of you that piss me off. J, I love when you start AIM conversations with me. I do NOT love, however, how you start it but don't have anything to say to me after that first message. I'll do my best to keep the convo going and to be silly, but you just reply with "lol" and "ahaha" and "=]" and then you HAVE to be the one to end the convo with an equally as short/bland message. why even AIM me if you don't want to talk to me? and G, it's fun talking to you too...when you aren't just trying to act cool and sarcastic. because like said, we're both sarcastic, but why can't we just have a normal conversation once in a while?
because you two are boys [gay or straight, it doesn't matter], I know you'll read this and think, "wtf, why is she getting so mad over something little like eating at the mall?" news flash, it's NOT just about the mall. I'm a girl. it's NEVER just about the mall. and like I said before [if you were reading closely enough], it's not the mall that I'm mad about. it's the fact that you two have REPEATEDLY treated me badly and very non-friend-like, and I've seriously had enough, although I don't hate you guys to the point where I'd yell at you to your face about it. but seriously, friends treat friends RIGHT. with friends, you have to think about the other person too, not JUST yourself and ALWAYS yourself. it's not always about you.
for example, K lives far, but he's willing to make the trip to my apartment just so we can hang out. he'll walk all the way to the mall with me for some little reason like getting ice cream in the winter or getting milk from trader joes. and you two? neither of you ever want to hang out [J always makes plans with us and then doesn't follow through, and G always uses the excuse that he lives too far from the city, which, granted, makes sense, but still]. I mean, cmon guys, at least make an effort.
once again, I'm sorry for saying all that I just said on an internet blog, but let's be honest, no one's going to read this or understand it except for you two, if you even read it in the first place. I'm not asking for a huge apology or for you to suck up to me or whatever. I just want you to understand and try to improve the way you treat me. we're supposed to be friends, guys.
all I can say now is: I'm glad the holidays start soon. I think we definitely need a small break from each other because absence really does make the heart grow fonder.
with love [really]:
Kristen.
let's start with the final straw, aka what happened today. monday after monday, I always do what you two want, even though you both know I don't eat subway and I hate walking to the opposite side of campus from where I live. but even if I whine about it once in a while, I still go because friends care more about each other than themselves. but today is the one day when I ask you guys to go somewhere I want to go, and you guys just make excuses and complain that the mall is too far away when HELLO, it's just down the street and you only have to cross one 2-lane street to get there. and cmon, you have the time to walk there, eat, and back. did you have something better to do with your free time? yeah, didn't think so. I walked there by myself AND back AND turned in all 7 of my applications AND bought food AND shopped...in just half an hour. so no, it isn't wasting your time. and what's this about the food court being "so 80s"? like that even makes sense. who DOESN'T eat in food courts, wtf?
second, our presentation for class. when we were working on the powerpoint at first, I participated and spoke up, but every single one of my ideas were shot down. so I shut up. and then J, you had the nerve to tell me I can "suggest anything anytime". seriously? I know I've been acting bitchy lately, but it's only because you two have been treating me like shit for the past few weeks. I'm not mean unless someone's mean to me first. if I ever act rude or say something bitchy to either of you, keep in mind that it's because of something you did/said to me first.
speaking of which, G, you've been saying some of the rudest things to me lately. on AIM, first you ask me out -- and I don't know if you were telling the truth when you said you didn't remember it, or if for some reason the message just popped up without you knowing -- and then when you keep bugging me about what you said [I never said it because it was something I didn't want to talk about; I was NOT playing hard to get], you had the gall to say I was just "one of those girls". okay, there is NO way I'm your only female friend. let me make this extremely clear to you: NO girl, whether you're joking or not or what kind of relationship you have with her, likes being referred to as "one of those girls". you might think it's no big deal to say it, but it's RUDE.
the second instance was when we were leaving class the time before our presentation. you kept saying how you would wear your 'fuck cancer' shirt, I said you shouldn't, and then you got all butt-hurt and told me to "get over myself". okay first of all, that doesn't even make sense. my telling you not to wear a shirt has nothing to do with me being full of myself...I mean really? and third was when we were actually working on our presentation and you kept spitting things out like "YOU'RE the jerk" and "yeah because you're SO cool" in that sarcastic way of yours that is NOT joking-sarcastic, but plain rude-sarcastic. we both know I'm a sarcastic person, and I know you have your moments too, but there's a difference between joking around and being downright disrespectful.
and then there comes AIM conversations in general with both of you that piss me off. J, I love when you start AIM conversations with me. I do NOT love, however, how you start it but don't have anything to say to me after that first message. I'll do my best to keep the convo going and to be silly, but you just reply with "lol" and "ahaha" and "=]" and then you HAVE to be the one to end the convo with an equally as short/bland message. why even AIM me if you don't want to talk to me? and G, it's fun talking to you too...when you aren't just trying to act cool and sarcastic. because like said, we're both sarcastic, but why can't we just have a normal conversation once in a while?
because you two are boys [gay or straight, it doesn't matter], I know you'll read this and think, "wtf, why is she getting so mad over something little like eating at the mall?" news flash, it's NOT just about the mall. I'm a girl. it's NEVER just about the mall. and like I said before [if you were reading closely enough], it's not the mall that I'm mad about. it's the fact that you two have REPEATEDLY treated me badly and very non-friend-like, and I've seriously had enough, although I don't hate you guys to the point where I'd yell at you to your face about it. but seriously, friends treat friends RIGHT. with friends, you have to think about the other person too, not JUST yourself and ALWAYS yourself. it's not always about you.
for example, K lives far, but he's willing to make the trip to my apartment just so we can hang out. he'll walk all the way to the mall with me for some little reason like getting ice cream in the winter or getting milk from trader joes. and you two? neither of you ever want to hang out [J always makes plans with us and then doesn't follow through, and G always uses the excuse that he lives too far from the city, which, granted, makes sense, but still]. I mean, cmon guys, at least make an effort.
once again, I'm sorry for saying all that I just said on an internet blog, but let's be honest, no one's going to read this or understand it except for you two, if you even read it in the first place. I'm not asking for a huge apology or for you to suck up to me or whatever. I just want you to understand and try to improve the way you treat me. we're supposed to be friends, guys.
all I can say now is: I'm glad the holidays start soon. I think we definitely need a small break from each other because absence really does make the heart grow fonder.
with love [really]:
Kristen.
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